What cycle of life are you in?
What cycle of life are you currently in?
I often say that life is a constant cycle of death and rebirth.
You aren't born once and you don't die once, you are born and die again and again during the same lifetime.
This is simply inevitable if you are a seeker of knowledge and experiences.
You'll die and be reborn multiply times if you prioritize growth and chase after it with persistence and passion.
It's been a little over a month since I put all of my side hustle efforts on hold, concluded all of my groups and stopped building my business/working with clients.
Before when people would ask me what I have been up to or what my plans are I would rattle off somewhat of an epic speech.
Constantly juggling multiple projects and ideas and fueled by my inspiration and hunger to create.
A 2.5 year cycle has come to an end.
I am no longer who I once was and am instead in the process of redefining myself.
Here I stand before you with perhaps the scariest response I have had to offer in a long time, that of the unknown.
What's going to happen next?
I don't know.
I think one of the biggest lessons I faced during June was confronting the dilemma of:
Can I love myself when I strip away all my titles and achievements?
Can I love myself as just an average, ordinary human?
Can I love myself simply for existing?
I think the answer is yes, but I'm still working out the kinks. ;)
Surrender sounds easy, but it's not for me.
Last night I felt this wave of intense emotions and this is what spilled from my head and heart:
"I'm having feelings. It's okay to have feelings. In fact, I like the contrast, the intensity, the desire, the unknown, even the fear. I'm on the edge of my seat, surrendering and rising and fantasizing and falling. I am a goddess, that I know, and it shall never be stripped from me. Oh this peculiar incubation period... what happens next is a mystery."
So, now, my friends I ask you:
What phase of life are you currently in?
Where and how are you struggling to love yourselves?
Are you adrift in the sea of "I dont know," or are you charging ahead with your clearly defined vision?
How are you feeling?
Be warned that an eclipse is coming...
Love and light, Hruska